1.My family is broken 2. I hate my life in general 3. I've been abused physically and emotionally 4. I've lost many friends to gang violence ad suicide 5. Friends in Oklahoma being deployed in August or September 6. I got discharged from the military for depression and a personality disorder 7. I'm a disappointment to my family and friends 8. I'm tired of faking my whole fucking life-emotions and feeling 9. I don't want to face reality 10. I'm a coward 11. I'm a bitch 12. Im a failure 13. I'm a bad daughter 14. I'm a bad sister 15. I'm a bad friend 16. I'm a bad girlfriend 17. My body is torn and ugly 18. I have no self image anymore-negative or positive 19. I benefit nobody by living 20. I'm pathetic and loathe myself 21. I cant do anything right 22. I have an absolute hate for myself 23. I'm decietful 24. I hide from everything and everyone 25. I push people away or don't let them in 26. I'm worthless 27. I have no positive future ahead of me 28. I have no hope 29. I have no faith 30. people would be better off without me 31. I am invaluable 32. I am a waste of space and life 33. God hates me because I've screwed up too much 34. I've turned my back on God ("the ultimate sin") 35. I've fucked up far to many people's lives 36. nobody would miss me anyways, they deserve better 37. I've had to start a new life again 38. I have no desire to live, death is ideal and appealing to me 39. I wouldn't have to deal with anymore shit 40. I'm selfish 41. I don't even deserve the shitty life I have lived 42. I'm too scared and paranoid to make new friends because I'll mess those up too 43. I'm a burden and a worry to many people although I dont deserve to be worried about 44. My ex fiance cheated on me...twice 45. and simply, I'm just a fucked up individual who has been waiting to burst!