I've spent the last two years trying to find a reason to live. What is a reason to live anyway? Is it something that out weighs all of the bad in your life or something that justifies your birth other than the fact that your mamma got knocked up? I have little to go on. I'm not talented, I am far from popular and pretty. I'm not good at anything. I don't think I believe in god. I want to believe in something bigger than us but the BS meter in my brain goes off when I explore the possibilities. As far as I can tell I was put on this earth for the use as everyone else's whipping girl. I'm tired of being people's emotional punching bag. I'm tired of apologizing to the world for being born. I don't know what to do and I'm hoping some one here has some answers.