Hi, Can you please help me by listing your top 1 or 2 reasons that keep you going on the darkest days when you are having suicidal urges? I don't have the focus as I type to read lengthy paragraphs--I may later just not right now--so even a word or two or a brief sentence may be better. I am fighting what I feel are very 'rational' reasons and thoughts on I guess the dark side, and I am in need of some counter thoughts to hopefully be able to keep in mind . I am tired of feeling trapped and 'hanging on, and the only certainties I am able to foresee (that actually exist) are challenges that are set ahead for me to deal with. What really helps you, even or especially as a last resort, please? I don't think I am seeking distraction but something more effective.