I've read several stories of people that have been in some pretty bad places on here. A lot of people have mentioned being homeless and things like that. I'm wondering if people that have been in these situations, or something you would describe as 'rock bottom' have noticed that it caused any change in your mental state? That's the short version for those that don't want to read the tome that follows. To give more detail, I feel kind of dead to the world at the moment. When people ask me how I'm doing, 'not terrible' seems an honest answer. Just this longstanding numb sadness. If that makes any sense. One of the ways this plays itself out is that I don't do well at getting stuff done. I don't always get into work, don't return phone calls, don't pay bills, etc. I guess the last one is big, because while my finanical situation isn't spectacular, I could keep myself afloat if I just kept on top of things. But I don't think I've checked my mail for two months even. I've felt for awhile that it's inevitable that something really bad results from this... something like bankruptcy and being evicted and on the street or whatnot. Maybe prison if I don't respond to those IRS letters (I don't even owe them money but can't bother myself to fix the situation). But I also know that I have all the ability in the world if I could just change my mindset. And that's why in the back of my mind, I wonder if having something bad happen like being kicked out on the street would be a good thing. Since I've never really had to worry in my life about having a roof over my head or being able to find something to eat on any particular day, maybe having such truly basic needs as motivation would help. But maybe I still wouldn't care and I'm fooling myself thinking that would help. And so that's why I want to know what experience others have had. Thanks.