I go on and off with these feelings of suicide and they never stop. After another conversation with my girlfriend in which she just didn't understand what I was saying, I realized I just couldn't take it anymore. Needless to say, I wasn't successful, but I am still feeling after effects. This attempt is less than 18 hours old. Am I just taking things too seriously with her, or is she really just not understanding what she's doing to make me feel this bad? In a nutshell, things with her build and build. I cannot drive because of an illness, so I am trapped at home daily. I rely on her for essentially all that I do and all that I need. When I make a request at the grocery store, 'oh, they didn't have it'. When I ask to go out on the weekends, she doesn't feel like it. If her friends or family make similar requests, she amazingly has all the time in the world. When we have a conversation, she makes me feel like I am speaking a foreign language. Any question I ask either gets ignored (supposedly she didn't hear me), or she answers with some off the wall answer. I don't get it. I just couldn't take it anymore. She knew what I had done, I asked her to come home early from work. Of course she couldn't; blah blah blah, so many excuses. When she did get home, she went right to the dogs and said 'I'm sorry this happened to you'. I was NEVER acknowledged at all. She never asked how I was feeling, if I needed any water, if I needed help to go to the bathroom, etc. It's like I didn't exist. Apparently to her a suicide attempt is nothing serious. Her actions make me want to go further. I can't afford ($$$) to live without her right now. I don't know what to do. She has no idea she's killing me, literally (almost) and figuratively. Is everyone who deals with a person who fails at their attempt always like this? My second failure involved her and she actually came to visit me. I have no idea what's wrong with her now.