Last month I was admitted to hospital after overdosing on medication and alcohol. I've been trying to work with the psychiatric teams that doctors have sent me to, but I don't feel any different. I'm only 20 and I already feel like my life is over. I don't care about contributing to the world or making a difference. There's nothing I care about. I want something to care about, but there's nothing that gives me purpose. I'm considering killing myself in a more effective way, that's the only thing on my mind. It's funny, the biggest regret I have right now is that I'm still alive to type out this message.