I attempted a few days ago and obviously I failed, but that doesn't mean I won't stop trying. Anyway, when I came to, a Winnie-the-Pooh saying came to me. "If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you." That quote explains EXACTLY how I feel...to a "T". I lost a good friend of mine a year ago on Holloween, and this is my first year without her. God, its so hard without her. No one to talk to...no one to confide in...I am lost without her. My heart aches...I almost can't make it day to day...thats why I attempt.