While I have been slowly trying to cope with depression, anxiety and life issues (finances,university) for passed half a year. I started doing actual progress when I get to know closer to one of causal friends on discord, we became close friends, I ask him if he would date me and he said yes. He have given me the best month of my life - I have never felt better, even with all the shit going on in my life. I could talk to him honestly about anything, and he would always provide me with kind advice, motivation to work on my self, and above all simply with care and love. And on friday I have crossed some lines, we had an argument he broke up with me, we talked brieftly on saturday and he didn't replied to me since. After that I have been feeling terrible - I have been crying the past 4 days. I feel awful, because I still love him and I fucked up - I have betrayed his trust and I have hurt him a lot. On saturday he said, that he will need time for our relations to recover, and that if I work on myself, and we will get back to getting allong he will consider getting me another chance. I do however feel I should give him a brake for a bit to not make things worse. I want to do what I promise and continue working on my self, but there is one thing I didn't realised I had a problem with short temper and overreacting to things easly to the point I can't even think clearly and I just allow irrational fellings to control me. I don't feel like doing a full therapy atm, with all other things going on in my life, but I need to work on not losing my temper and controling myself in stressful situation. And I do go trough a circle of self pity as well. In addition to that I need to work on being more considering of needs that other may have. Its going to take me long to stop feeling shity for hurting the only person I truly love and care about. I have very slim chances of getting him back, but even if he won't get back with me I promised to do it. So I need advice on strategical ways of developing self control on my own - trough exercises and stuff. I thought about trying to do a form of CBT, but I welcome all sugestions.