It's been 1&1/2 years since my last attempt that i almost died from. I suffer from short term memory loss and guilt and sorrow about what i have done to my health and how I've hurt my family and friends. Im having lots of crying spells. Im hauntedby my own aactions that was self inflicted. I don't know what is better, to survive and tell about it or to have died so i wont be haunted everyday. The pain is still there and is killing me. I dont know how I'l. ever get through this.