I've lost people, loved ones, friends. People I loved now hate me, and it still makes me sad. I don't seem to be able to make friends anymore, I'm so scared of rejection that I don't approach people, I don't talk, I don't tell people how I feel. I hide from people and run away from crowds, I rarely go out. I've tried to make some friends, but they all just seem to stop talking to me, If I talk to them they don't always even say hello, when they do I know they're just humoring me. What is it about me? Why do I see people log on MSN but they never message me? I've tried so hard to be more pleasent, not to talk so much about negative things, be less brutally honest. Try to live up to what people want me to be. How can I just be unlikeable? I'm so tired of being alone.