I just wondered has anyone been forced to see a doctor to have a psycological questioning? I think I did one of the dumbest things ever 3 years ago when I got pushed in to this situation. Thanks to my brilliant acting skills I passed as perfectly normal and even passed the buck on to my own mother with the doctor explaining that I should keep away from my mother as she sounded like a bad influence trying to get me committed. The truth is I've been depressed since I was a very young child, despising myself for as long as I can remember. I need help but I also am so ashamed that I have such a HUGE problem with myself. My life is ok I guess but the person I am is awful. At the moment I am again contemplating suicide but I just cant stop thinking how upset and betrayed my family will feel when I do it. Lives can change, people cant. I'm stuck now walking back and forth to the medicine cabinet counting my pills out wondering when the right time is. I hate myself.