Hello Since September 8th, I've had a crush on an new Israeli student name <edit moderator total eclipse name deleted>. She is in my Science class, History class, and advisory. Her father is the Israeli Ambassador to the United States. We are both sophomores in high school. I am 16 years old. When we first met it was lovely, it was after orientation and we split off into advisory. She had asked me how many kilometers was 3 miles, I told her about 5. Even though it was the simplest interaction, I was instantly hooked on to her because of her beautiful big blue eyes. Even though she tends to wear a good amount of make-up, mascara, and eyeliner. She has short red hair down just past her shoulders and has pale white skin. She is the most beautiful girl in the world. As the school year went on, we had a little dialogue between us. We would greet each other in the halls, I would make her laugh during class, and I asked her about Israel. We used to sit together for assembly, because it was advisory seating. She then realized that you didn't necessarily have to sit with your advisory so that changed in mid-October. That made me upset, because she is sitting with her girl-friends (friends that are girls), and I don't want to be the only guy with her, that would be a little weird, but if necessary I will integrate that into my routine, if I want to be close with her again. In mid to late October, a friend told me to ask **** out in the next 2 weeks, because I didn't want to get friend-zoned. Considering he had a girlfriend, I decided I would do it very soon, I couldn't take it anymore. Halloween was a big day for my relationship with **** I came into science class late and I found myself sitting next to her. She loved my policeman costume, she complimented me and grabbed my hand as a greeting. I loved her Cleopetra costume, she looked lovely, she looked like a goddess. After I made her laugh during class, she briefly rested her shoulder on me, which was amazing. After school, I had asked "Are you free this weekend?" She said, "Yes, I think I am." I then said, "Do you want to get together or something?" *****replied, "I'll see, just text me when you have an idea." I thought for sure this meant yes. So until Friday I was pondering date ideas. Friday November 2nd came, and I had officially asked her out to a set date. Due to scheduling conflicts, she couldn't see me that night, and I couldn't see her that Saturday so it didn't work out. On Wednesday November 7th, I decided to follow through with her. What the hell did I have to lose? She said no because of availability. So right before I got to talk with her about asking her out to a movie, she said, "Daniel, I want to talk with you actually, I don't think I'm ready for this now, look, you're a really nice guy, do you understand? Let's hug it out." We hugged. I walked home in shame, I wanted to kill myself that night but if I did that I would never get to see her again. On Sunday November 18th, she came over to my house because my parents wanted to meet her dad, who is the <edit mod total eclipse deleted for Privacy reasons> We talked a lot actually, me and ***** She really opened up to me, it was nice, and I opened up to her. We hugged as a greeting. When she left she waved goodbye, I was very mixed about the situation. She is still very nice to me after she had rejected me. Although since then I've wanted to kill myself every night. I need help. How do I make her like me? How do I get closer with Avigail, and eventually make her my girlfriend? I'm running out of time Thank you for reading. Bless your heart.