Relapse

[sicksadworld]

I relapsed again. I hate the holidays, they always remind me of everything I was before… this. You know it seemed like I had just started to get myself back together I was eating on the regular and I had just gotten to the point when I wasn’t thinking about junk all of the time. I got a new place far away from the basement apartment in the wasteland section of town and a paying gig as a studio musician.

So why do I still want to just jam a needle in my arm and a barrel in my mouth?

 

[Dave_N]

I was wondering where you had gone sicksadworld.

 

[gentlelady]

It is hard to battle addiction. The urge doesn't go away. It helps to feed the depression, which feeds suicidal thoughts. i am sorry that you haven't found yourself completely out of that world yet, but you have made steps in the right direction. Be proud of what you have accomplished so far and keep moving forward. :hug:

 

[soliloquise]

i am a recovered addict myself. the trick is to deal with what is underneth the addiction.. usually trauma and depression. dealing with those things makes the urge to use diminish and life gets a bit easier. get as much support as you can... NA and MIND helped me alot

 

[sicksadworld]

yeah I am still around and not on the nod long enough sometimes to actually read good advice... thanks guys