It's been 6 months since I was in hospital... about 7.5 from cutting or OD'ing. I don't know what got me tonight but felt the urge bad so I cut. Only a little. A scratch really but now I'm freaking. I don't know why. I suppose I am scarde and nervous. get this...I work in a psychiatric unit now. Yup... people with personality disorders. I get annoyed by them, big time. I feel that some of them do it for attention. But now I am back there an isd I did it. I have let myself down. I don't know what it is. I am a bit stressed with work but nothing major. Maybe it is the fact I was at hospital the other day with a patient of mine and I saw the SW that I saw before. Didn;t talk to him. But maybe as it was out of context. I have had the urges for a while. Maybe it is I never got chance to be on my own. I am off meds now. I came off them on my own. They were working but they made me put on weight and I didn't like it. I think I should go back to see the GP. I'm being a bit irrational tonight. Back at work tomorrow morning at 7am for another 13 hour shift. Maybe it will be a one off, but who knows. It is a slippery slope!