I am so tired and depressed my daughter has relapsed and is now in a room with only a mattress on the floor. She is suffering greatly and i just don't have energy to deal with it anymore. I can't go see her in this pain like this i am not strong anymore i have become helpless now. I am this child from long ago and want only to hide away i am in to much pain My twin called and said she would go see my daughter god i can't go on anymore The pain is too great for me I have been in bed most days hiding out now i need a way out i can't watch this anymore her distruction i can't hold on when there is no hope in sight. Not a very good mother right but i said i wouldn't interfer with her care anymore so i need to just find a way to stop this pain somehow i am just drained. I will not do anything tonight but i don't know how much longer i can hold on. really how much more suffering can one watch and feel helpless to change anything.