I had posted on this forum a couple of years ago when I was undergoing a bout of depression. I was 18 then. I'm 21 now. I managed to pull myself together and moved on for a while, but I've just relapsed into it majorly. I had moved out of my parents house and to another city for college and was staying with friends for a few years. Once college got over, my friends moved away and I was staying with my uncle and his daughter for a couple of months until I found a new place. My uncle is about 65 and his daughter is around 30 or so. She wasn't at home very often. My uncle used to hug me and keep touching me inappropriately when she wasn't around, and I was really uncomfortable around him but I didn't know what to do. I sort of denied it and wrote it off as an old guy being a little overly affectionate. This went on for months. Finally one morning before he left for work he came into my bedroom to wake me up. It started with him tickling me and pretending he was just kidding around but then he started touching me everywhere and he kept asking me if I liked it. I didn't know what to do so I just lay there and pretended to be asleep though I know he knew I was awake, and finally he left. Since then I'd always tried to stay away from him, but it was his house and I couldn't always prevent it, and I don't know why but I couldn't say anything. I don't want to tell my parents because although I know they love me and they would do anything to protect me, he's a close relative and I don't want this to tear the family apart. I've finally moved out and I try to steer clear of him, but so many times at night I don't want to fall asleep because I dream of those things, and I'm 21 now, but I feel like such a child because of this. I thought it would help if I told someone about it, so I told one of my close friends and it was a mistake. I know she wouldn't tell anyone else, but she keeps making fun of me and sarcastically passes comments about me being into old men and she doesn't realize that while I laugh when she says it I really do feel like screaming sometimes. I don't know what I expect from putting this out here, I know there are others who need more comfort and friendship than I do, but I just needed to get it out to people who won't judge. Thank you for reading.