So I ended up in a psychiatriac ward for a week for depression anxiety and PSTD, I was feeling really low and did some stupid things and it eventually landed me in the nut house, I met some really nice people while I was there. The past few weeks on the new medication have been great but now I feel like im going back to that very dark place I was at before I went in. I'm meeting with my psychiatrist and dont want to go back to the hospital for christmas because I have a 4 year old son to look after. I think im going to end up going tomorrow and just saying that everything is fine just because I dont want to end up back in hospital.. I went in voluntary but they locked the door after I went in and took away all my laces etc and I just dont want to go back. I dont think the meds are working anymore and they only took me until I was stable on the meds I really dont want to go back.