damn relationships fuckin suck. In fact i really honestly wish that i could go back to being a blissfully ignorant girlfriendless virgin. Which is ironic because when i was a lonely fuck i wanted nothing more to not be one. But i can tell you right now that losing my virginity and getting a girlfriend had done nothing but add numerous layers of stress and agony to my already fragile straining psche. At least when i was ignorant i could harbor thoughts of eventually meeting the perfect girl and being just ohso happy. HA, being with a girl is nothing but constant bickering, confusion, and emotional pain. and having sex just made things worse. Mostly because, being the horroble pathetic piece of shit loser that i am, i preformed quiter poorly. so now on top of everything else shit is all awkward and weird between us because of it. I hate the fact that whenever something happens in my life that seems good it just ends up being bad and just serves to push me further into the dark pain of my suicidal thoughts. Godamn this pain just eats away at me. I wonder, is there anyone who shares this scenario. or perhaps im just one single miserable wretch amidst a sea of happy loving couples.