Sex is part of our nature of course. I guess it's something I deny myself mostly because of my state of mind and the fact that I know that potential partners wouldn't be interested in hearing a story like mine. The concept of dating doesn't really exist in my universe. I've always been like this I guess but I suppose I'm coming to terms with the fact that feeling a sense of existential transcendence through romantic love is simply not reality for most of us. It does feel like a shame though as one is only young once.