How do you manage when it comes to relationships? Is it possible to have a normal relationship? I was abused on a regular basis when I was 7 years old and then my first boyfriend dumped me because I wouldn't have sex with him. The second boyfriend forced himself on to me and only stopped because there were people walking by and it has left me with a fear of men, and a fear of intimacy. I am now with my third boyfriend and I honestly don't know what I'm feeling. At times I think I love him then there's other times when I feel negatively towards him and I don't know if I love him or not... He has a habit of doing things which trigger off memories from the past and sometimes he has no tact. But then there's other times when he's really nice to me and I get very defensive and now it's starting to cause problems in our relationship. I used to turn to him a lot, he was my rock but now I block him out of a lot of my feelings and I find it so very difficult to open up to him. He says he loves me, wants to be with me and all this 'sweet romantic' stuff but it makes me feel sick. Maybe it's all too 'full on', I don't know.. In his words, I have become 'distant' and now our relationship is really on the rocks. Infact, I have just got off the phone to him now and we were talking about this. Or at least, he was.. I didn't know what to say. To round it all off I know I have trust issues with men, unfortunately, including my boyfriend. In the back of my mind that part of me thinks he is going to end up hurting me but I don't know if I can tell him this.. I don't know if I should be in a relationship with him but if I break up with him, it will hurt him a lot, it will also upset me too I just don't know what to do..