I'm not sure why I'm becoming hypervigilent at night time, but there have been evenings recently where even the ice maker dropping ice has made me hit the ceiling. Its an uneasy feeling. anxiousness. tightness & some pains in my chest. And so last week I started SH again. Tonight I tried to resist. Distracted doing some other things. But I didn't win and it has taken some time to slow the flow. Its so rediculous, I feel like crap. So, my release is done. But this isn't the end of it tonight. Its wanting more and more and more. So, obviously becoming an issue that was presumed to be situational previously. I know its getting to the heart of the issues that is important and thats underway. Maybe thats the reason? Sorry, talking out loud I suppose, not sure about it all. I just really need that release to help me atm.