I believe that part of the reason i hate my life so much and want to die is because of my religion, im a muslim and i should'nt say this (im sorry if i offend anyone thats not my intention) but i hate my religion alot of the time, i feel like alot the pain and problems i have are caused by my religion. All my life my religion has restricted the things i can do in my life, i cant seem to get away from it, i live with my parents and they are quite strict which means they dont let me do anything i would love to move out but i dont really have the money, apparently a muslim girl should'nt move out they should only move the once when she gets married im stuck here, i feel so trapped i dont want to leave my parents i cant dissapoint them but my life is killing me, im starting to hate my family all i want is a normal life i want friends that i dont have to lie to. I have to lie to people because i dont want no one to get to close to me incase they find out how much i hate life i dont know what to do i hate myself for these feelings. i cant get away from all of this i feel ashamed of my life my existence i wish this so called f**kin god would take me away. I just want to be normal i cant cope with this mess, the only thing i pray to god for is death.