This last month I almost lost my husband and it reminded me how life is short and precious. People say that time ease the pain and longing of those passed away but they are only fooling themselves. I've burried three of my children few years back and the pain has not lessen for nothing. There is not a single day that I dont have a thought for them and as time gets closer to their leaving this life, the harder i find it each year. Each deals with their loss differently, my husband is more physolofic about it but for me its a cancer eating me up each year. Kids are not made to leave before parents.
My only consolation is in the surviving but the pain is there latent and tonight we got to talking about them and my heart just ache. I wish there was a hole where to hide from all the pain i've been through and I know I am not done with such pains. My husband has been a nail in my coffin and little is left for me to hang on to. Should i loose him too it would be my death.
Life just gets harder as time goes and the longing stronger as i grow older.
Why do kids have to be called back in so early years in life??????? Its the death of parents loosing their kids so please whoever is suicidal, know that either it is by suicide or other reasons, parents no matter the age or relation they have iwth their kids do suffer a great deal and will never recuperate.
I'd give anything to have them back but i awake to an empty house and this silence is just killing me. I want them back so badly :sad:
If you need help, reach out till someone or something will come your way to help you see the light and happiness again, just dont give up i beg you. The pain is just to much for us survivers. :sad:
My only consolation is in the surviving but the pain is there latent and tonight we got to talking about them and my heart just ache. I wish there was a hole where to hide from all the pain i've been through and I know I am not done with such pains. My husband has been a nail in my coffin and little is left for me to hang on to. Should i loose him too it would be my death.
Life just gets harder as time goes and the longing stronger as i grow older.
Why do kids have to be called back in so early years in life??????? Its the death of parents loosing their kids so please whoever is suicidal, know that either it is by suicide or other reasons, parents no matter the age or relation they have iwth their kids do suffer a great deal and will never recuperate.
I'd give anything to have them back but i awake to an empty house and this silence is just killing me. I want them back so badly :sad:
If you need help, reach out till someone or something will come your way to help you see the light and happiness again, just dont give up i beg you. The pain is just to much for us survivers. :sad:
