Reminded how short life is

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by Oak, Nov 8, 2008.

  1. Oak

    Oak Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    This last month I almost lost my husband and it reminded me how life is short and precious. People say that time ease the pain and longing of those passed away but they are only fooling themselves. I've burried three of my children few years back and the pain has not lessen for nothing. There is not a single day that I dont have a thought for them and as time gets closer to their leaving this life, the harder i find it each year. Each deals with their loss differently, my husband is more physolofic about it but for me its a cancer eating me up each year. Kids are not made to leave before parents.
    My only consolation is in the surviving but the pain is there latent and tonight we got to talking about them and my heart just ache. I wish there was a hole where to hide from all the pain i've been through and I know I am not done with such pains. My husband has been a nail in my coffin and little is left for me to hang on to. Should i loose him too it would be my death.
    Life just gets harder as time goes and the longing stronger as i grow older.
    Why do kids have to be called back in so early years in life??????? Its the death of parents loosing their kids so please whoever is suicidal, know that either it is by suicide or other reasons, parents no matter the age or relation they have iwth their kids do suffer a great deal and will never recuperate.
    I'd give anything to have them back but i awake to an empty house and this silence is just killing me. I want them back so badly :sad:
    If you need help, reach out till someone or something will come your way to help you see the light and happiness again, just dont give up i beg you. The pain is just to much for us survivers. :sad:
  2. andyc68

    andyc68 Guest

    who knows what the great plan of life is granny, i will be honest and say that i feel your pain, i have lost someone close to me and every mayday bank holiday i think of my close friend jason who choose suicide over life, hun if i could i would give you a big huggle.
    i have no answers to your questions but i do know that my life would be a little more emptier without you in it, even if it is just virtual.
    yu may wake up to an empty house but when you log onto sf know that you will never be alone.

    andy x :hug::flowers:
  3. Oak

    Oak Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Thank you Andy. I know there is no easy answer. I've been looking for years and none came to my questioning. It is heart breaking loosing children and loved ones. Thank you for reminding me that here i am never alone and that a few cares enough to look out for me. It doesnt ease the pain but knowing someone cares does help somehow.

    hug to you and thanks again

    granny xox
  4. andyc68

    andyc68 Guest

    you know where to find me hun, i am never too busy to chat to you.

    i wish you every hapiness you can find
  5. Starlite

    Starlite Senior Member

    Granny, you know im here for you anytime! :hug: my amica mia
  6. snowraven

    snowraven Well-Known Member

    Hello Granny. I'm so sorry to hear about your children. I know how tough that must be for you. As you know I'm always around and it's always a great pleasure to talk to you. Hope going home tomorrow brings you the peace you seek. Chat to you on monday hopefully. You are a real treasure my friend. Loads of love. Simon:hug:
  7. Oak

    Oak Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Thank you Andy, Karren and Simon, I know I can count on you to ease my load of sorrow. You are a major source of inspiration and compassion and i make treasure of you all.

    hug to all of you

    granny xox