About 3 years ago, I was having serious issues and found myself strongly tempted to end my life. I signed up for this forum back then to try to get some perspective; to remind myself that I wasn't really alone in how I felt. 2 years ago, in April, I was doing a lot better. I rarely thought about death and wasn't really depressed anymore. I proposed to the girl of my dreams and she accepted. Lately she's been having a rough time of her own. It pretty much started when her father moved back into their house. She grew up in verging-on-homeless poverty and her father is a compulsive hoarder, a complete dead-beat and sometimes verbally abusive. She moved in with me back in August. Since then she's lived under her own pall of depression. I can still make her smile and laugh, but it only lasts a few minutes before she lets out a sigh and puts on that face that makes me start to slip back to what I used to feel before I had her. And, of course, the thoughts of suicide have been coming back with the feelings. The first time I got better because she was there to save me. She knows how I was before but now she needs support to keep her from giving up on school. But since I can't deal with my problems alone, I hope you on here will listen to my endless kvetching. And, if possible, can you offer any advice about whether I should tell her I'm backsliding? If so, how should I go about telling her? I can't just come out and say it; she'll just blame herself. Sorry about the long post, but I haven't told anyone about my feelings in a very long time.