I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I haven't been here in the forum for a very long time because I was put away for some time. They don't understand, I don't need to be put away, I don't need to be here at all. I just want to no exist. They're just like "we just want to see you happy" ....yeah, we'll the only thing I want is the one thing they won't let me have. They are being selfish. Hell, maybe I'm being selfish in wanting to not exist but I deserve to be selfish. I've always made everyone else happy, always putting them first, but I want it to be my turn now. It's made me cut more than ever now. They can't even we that it's them that make me worst...so I lie to them. I keep protecting them from that truth. I just want out. I just want to be free.