repressed attempt.

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by crystaltears, Nov 24, 2014.

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  1. crystaltears

    crystaltears Member

    I am pretty sure I repressed an attempt at killing myself as a child.
    I recalled it as I was just seeing what <Mod Edit:Method>
    and now i am realizing with horror that I was so upset by my failure at this that i lied even to myself.
    no real damage that I know of came out of it. and i tried to continue my day. but it was so fuzzy. before and after it happened. I dont know why?

    I have so many repressed memories and I dont know how to get the help so i can remember them properly enough to move on.
     
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  2. Bart

    Bart Banned Member

    Maybe moving on, by definition, means leaving repressed memories behind?
     
  3. crystaltears

    crystaltears Member

    not when ones entire life is full of so many holes that old age would have taken less of my mind.
    I am now forgetting simple tasks just because it was associated to a "bad memory".
    have you forgotten how to open a door? have you forgotten how to hold a spoon? or how to zip a zipper?
    in the last month I have briefly forgotten all of those. and every year i leave "holes" in my memories more of this happens...

    not to mention the memories come out on their own. whether i like it or not. I just want to have them back on my terms.

    I wish I could just leave them behind.
     
  4. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    Sometimes childhood memories are created by ourselves and didn't happen.
     
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