Was talking today about self image, and rambling on about feeling ugly and when I was asked to explain more about it I realized that I am repulsive. Not just think it in the back of my head or half believe it without really meaning it, but full on this is the TRUTH I am repulsive, in every way, inside and out. How one word sums up so exactly how I feel about myself, who I am not just how I look. I know lots of people on here have ‘issues’ about how they look. I wondered if anyone else sees themselves like this, feels like this, looking in the mirror and cringing, trying really hard to avoid looking at all the repulsive things, squinting your eyes so as not to have to really see what’s there, pretending it’s not as bad as you think, that other people don’t really see you in the same disgusted way - and knowing all the time that they do. And when it extends to who you are - like you’re somehow deep down right at the core something so repulsive that nobody could possibly even want you around, let alone like and love you?