I'm feeling very resentful of my mother. I am 50 years old, she is 70. She has been mentally ill for as long as I can remember and also a drug addict. I have had depression for as long as I can remember. I sought treatment when I was 20 years old finally. I have always been the more responsible one in the family, the one who always kept a job and help other people out. I feel as if I've been taking care of my mother since I was a child. Now that she is older and in failing health, I resent the hell out of having to take care of her. I do not have any support from the rest of the family because she has alienated the rest of them. Many family members won't speak to me because I stay in contact with her. Most of the time I feel like I raised myself. I hate myself for feeling resentful of an old woman who is sick. I have no children, mainly because I did not want 2 be the type of parent she was. I know that when I'm her age I will have no one. It's one of the things that brings me to thinking of suicide almost everyday.