I'm done with this life. I've gotten to the point where I hate EVERYONE. Everyone grates on my last nerve for one reason or another. I have no remotely close friends or family because of this. I haven't for a long time. It makes me feel like a terrible person. I'm so lonely and disappointed I myself. I'm morbidly obese because food is the only thing I sometimes still enjoy. I have no love life. I have no career of significance. I feel unfulfilled and un talented. I'm lazy and look for my own self gratification before anything else. This also makes me feel like a terrible person. I used to hang in there for my mom's sake, but I'm not sure that's enough anymore. The pain is too great. I've felt this way for the better part of 22 years, more than half my life. I don't know if I can and will ever be happy. Problems are suppose to be temporary, but that doesn't seem true in my case. Won't do anything to myself right now, but feeling pretty hopeless and terrible.