I sometimes find comfort in "the fence". It is a place where I do not have to do anything. Right now I am perched on that fence facing a single choice. I can either suck it in and move on in life and in new surroundings or I can choose to harm myself. I have been on this fence before so I know the routine. The timeline is short as it is dictated by external events this time. I think I can truly understand being bipolar as it feels like I have two sides. The question is which side will win. I find it rather odd that as I face a difficult choice I am actually not depressed this time. It all just seems so matter of fact like picking what to eat. Perhaps if we sit on the fence to long we lose emotion. I know for me my feelings are numb, neither happy nor sad, just in limbo. What does one do when on the fence aka in limbo?