Habits. I hate this site. This is the place where depression is amplified. However I can't leave it. I started again. Much deeper and more frequently. It use to be apathy, now its emotion and obsession. I don't know If I'm suicidal again. yet. I hate myself for making a post. I just want a response like everyone else. Why do we have to be so selfish. Excuse me while I open up my skin and paint myself red.