I doubt many of you will remember me or not but I'm sadly returning. Couldn't contend with the problems I had before I left and my relationship with a girl I was dating hasn't worked out. Trouble is she was the only person who understood me but now we are so distant I have nobody to talk to anymore. On the inside I'm dying but I manage to put on a happy face for everybody and it seems like all the girls I try to talk to and meet think of me as some kind of clown. The root cause of my issues stem from my childhood and it's a long story but I managed to find my Father's number recently but he has barely bothered to respond and he didn't even wish me happy birthday on my 21st. I haven't seen him in ten years but he always visits his other children from what my half sister has said so I feel like it's my fault. He has six children but hasn't bothered with me, my brother and little sister. The three other kids are from two different relationships.