Hi, I'm new to this forum.. It's the cycle isn't it? Like you have to love yourself in order to love someone else fully..and when you can't get in relationship and love someone else, that makes you depressed..therefore not loving yourself even more..and unable to love someone else even more. The endless cycle of depression is always..tricky.. So, I think I might have to leave this place and go back Home..where I will be loved..immensely. Yes I believe in the source..we are all immortal and came from one source..we are God..part of God. There are many things I do not like about myself...I feel so limited in what I can do..like why am I stuck in a human body on Earth - a tiny planet in comparison to the ever expanding universe, I should be flying in heaven or the universe as my true source, my soul!! My body is not me but I'm stuck in it..and I do not like my body either.. I want to return to the source.. I cannot integrate with the environment I was given..I don't think I belong where I am..because..I haven't been this ever before in my life..I'm talking about previous lifetimes.. I was spiritual when I was a kid, I've seen many spirits, and had precognitions about future events which came true..but lost that when I was 11 or 12.. I have a task here on Earth because I chose this task..before I came here..all of us did..but..I'm not sure if there's any consequences if I ended my task way too early...I don't think it'll be that huge a consequence..but I think it'll have major affects.. on my family..but..it won't make that much a difference anyway since we're immortal, we came from the source, we never die.. so..50 odd years left for my family isn't that much compared to the true lifetime we have lived...from the big bang..till..forever.. I'm talking like this because..I've seen spirits when I was young..and that made me question about life..spirits have no body..but they're in their true form..they can fly! I've read about others experiences..and read many spiritual accounts..regarding my clairvoyance and precognitions.. Most humans have never personally encountered these, only heard of them therefore has limited views on spirituality.. I am one of the lucky ones to have encountered them, and know they are true events... So, if one would end his life, your life won't be nothing..you will continue to live...but..you must search for the light..there's light at the end of the tunnel..there's where all the love is..it is the source..the creator..the energy..the ultimate..souls are gathering there to receive love and ..just love that human cannot fathom.. There is where I'll be heading..so why am I ending it so early?? I personally believe everyone has the right to end their mission anytime they want... life on Earth is nothing compared to what lies ahead of death - the knowledge, knowledge that we're immortal, we're all one, we're the source, we're love, we're creators, we are who we are, we exist forever, knowledge of the creation, knowledge of everything..life on Earth is nothing compared to who we truly are..we are SOULS! So, I'm ending it because I want to be free..free of being stuck on Earth, free of being limited as a human..free of suffering..free..just free as I AM truly myself, my soul! Free of social conditioning, free of hypocrite, free of control, everything here on Earth is sick and twisted for it's own good..There's a reason for all the sick and twisted shit going on here.. Everyone's doing their dirty jobs...governments, corporations, corrupted governments and officials, people getting killed, all for ...what? Working just to get paid...starting your own life...and in the end it doesn't even matter.. Why are we worrying about what's going to happen tomorrow?? Why should we be really worry about anything here on Earth? We're immortal beings..why should be be worry what others do or say to us? It is because we're human...and humans have our limits..and we worry. So I shouldn't even bother about being a human.. therefore I should leave..I don't need to leave..but I REALLY want to leave..because..I don't think..Earth is suitable..for me..I'm so new to this place..I cannot go on like this..I don't wanna be part of the Earth people.. I wanna be FREE!! God bless me, God bless all of YOU!! Go search for the light..if you happen to..and know that we're all immortal beings.. nothing to worry about!