Been a while since I've been here, had a suicide attempt about 17 months ago which I'm very surprised it didn't work. Maybe a month or so after I stopped coming here, really no good reason why I stopped as my suicidal feelings aren't as strong as they were then but they're still there and seem to be increasing once again. I've been out of work now for over 3 years, first 2 years because I just wanted a break but have looked so, so hard after that with zero results and don't see any good results ever happening. Getting late where I am so will wrap this up and return in the morning, but quickly about me I'm a male in their mid-40's, no kids, no wife, no job, no prospects, think if everything stays the same will sink right back into the state I was once in. Oh well, I'm kind of a boring writer or at least so when I talk about myself so thanks for reading and will get back to any responses or PMs.