I was in a destructive "so-called" relationship for about a year and a few months. This guy I fell hard for treated me like crap while I tried hard to please and pursue him. I had no other rebound or other guys or friends to help me so, I stuck with him. It was a long distance, internet, phone text kinda relationship. In other words we only met once briefly, yet we kept in somewhat of a contact where I had hoped we could have a relationship yet he toyed with me, called me names, and treated me because he was a jerk and didn't care.
Anyway, he has since moved on(has a girlfriend now), and it crushed my hopes of ever building a normal relationship with him as pathetic as I am. I was fine being just friends, but he seem to push me away and it was like chasing a celebrity for me. It took a lot of me, and pushed me more into depression and suicidal thoughts.
Anyway, it's been about a month now since I haven't spoken to him because I tried hard to forget him, yet each passing day I want to do something to hurt him back for all the one year he put me through torture. I keep telling myself to let it go and by doing revenge it was not going to change the way I feel or get him back or anything, but at the same time I keep feeling he needs to learn a lesson from being such a Jerk. I have a rather good lesson to revenge on him(I won't say what it is), but it should put at least a small amount of humiliation on him. He may know it's from me, and he may not because it will be done carefully. I figured if I wasn't going to be with him anyway, and he wasn't going to contact me anymore, then I would have no loss.
What do you think? Please advise. I'm hurting anyway, but seeking revenge may be good for what's coming for him for what he did to me.
Anyway, he has since moved on(has a girlfriend now), and it crushed my hopes of ever building a normal relationship with him as pathetic as I am. I was fine being just friends, but he seem to push me away and it was like chasing a celebrity for me. It took a lot of me, and pushed me more into depression and suicidal thoughts.
Anyway, it's been about a month now since I haven't spoken to him because I tried hard to forget him, yet each passing day I want to do something to hurt him back for all the one year he put me through torture. I keep telling myself to let it go and by doing revenge it was not going to change the way I feel or get him back or anything, but at the same time I keep feeling he needs to learn a lesson from being such a Jerk. I have a rather good lesson to revenge on him(I won't say what it is), but it should put at least a small amount of humiliation on him. He may know it's from me, and he may not because it will be done carefully. I figured if I wasn't going to be with him anyway, and he wasn't going to contact me anymore, then I would have no loss.
What do you think? Please advise. I'm hurting anyway, but seeking revenge may be good for what's coming for him for what he did to me.