Right, it's decided. I've thought everything through and taking into consideration all of my other alternatives, life just isn't worth it. I've prepared everything; I have a loaded firearm and I'm ready to pull the trigger. I'm just finishing up my note, not much point though as I don't have any family and the few friends I do have probably won't care. I took my cat down to the vets today and asked if they could keep him for the night, at least he'll be safe there. Reading various forums online has served to alleviate my pain somewhat, but it's just too much; I really can't go on. So, this will be my memento, I guess I'll at least be leaving something behind for someone to remember me by. Just a few more minutes...good bye everyone, and thank you.