RIP Ashley: The Best Friend I'll Ever Know

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by barto, Apr 9, 2011.

  1. barto

    barto Well-Known Member

    2 years today since the best friend I'll ever have left the world...Scratch that, the best friend anybody will ever have....No, the best person anybody will ever know. There aren't words to describe the sorrow in my soul or the guilt in my mind, but I'll try my best...I just wish my best could be good enough for once....​


    A place in my heart,
    Belongs just to you.
    The one who believed,
    And helped me through.

    You told me to put
    Down the razor and pick up the food
    And I didn't see
    You had all the same problems
    Yet you were helping me...

    There are so many things I never told you
    All the thanks caught in my throat
    You said I'm smart and beautiful
    Even in your final note...

    Am I throwing it in your face?
    ASHLEY, I LOVED YOU!
    YOU SUPPORTED THIS DISGRACE!​
     
  2. icequeen

    icequeen Well-Known Member

    :console: the pain of loss is evil but dont let guilt be your god
     
  3. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    I am so sorry for your loss...but why do you feel guilt? It sounds like you tried to be the best friend you could be as well...J
     
  4. barto

    barto Well-Known Member

    I did try, but I feel like I should have seen it coming. And the night before, we had a fight and......:cry:
     
  5. barto

    barto Well-Known Member

    I was just listening to my Pandora radio station and this song came up:In This Moment—Unconditional: You Always Believed
    It brought back everything. All your smiles, every hug, your words of sincerity and kindness; you mother's anguish in her eyes when she looked at me and told me it wasn't my fault and my mother's slurred speech when she told me it was....it brought it all back :cry:
     
  6. the masked depressant

    the masked depressant Well-Known Member

    awww.

    sorry mel

    :(

    hugs
     
  7. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I'm so sorry you lost your dear friend Mel...
    and even sorrier about your Mum saying that..

    Ashleys Mum has told you it wasn't your fault so please believe her..
    there is no way she would say that if she didn't believe it..

    *hugs*
     
  8. barto

    barto Well-Known Member

    Thank you both for your condolences....it means a lot.
    :hug: