Three years ago, my friend, Anthony, killed himself. He shot himself in the head in his truck, after scribbling out a suicide note to friends and family. We are not sure the reason why he did it. On 9.9.09, my best friend, James, died of epilepsy. He had a seizure and fell down two flights of stairs, breaking his neck. The pain is still hard to bear. I've been in mourning for over a year, unable to get over it. Loss is hard, I'm still not completely over it. But, I know that its nothing to try and kill myself over. I realize that now. It only took me three years..