Anyone else just do things that could potentionally end you life? Like lately been getting high no OTC drugs so I could trip, also when I've driving somewhere I really really speed I get to 120-130 mph. I don't think I'm really trying to be suicidal, I'm just saying what happens happens. Like right now I'm waiting to go to some residential place, but I'm kinda having serious second doubts because I don't feel like my mom should be paying so much money to have me go somewhere, when she has already spent so much cash on me already that I have wasted and with a baby brother I feel like she should be spending it on the baby instead of me. So I'm just subconsciously trying to kill myself by accident maybe. So does anyone else do extremely risky behavior, like passing 5 cars with a truck coming the other way barely missing it. Or doing idiotic otc drugs to get high?