I've been seeking out dangerous situations. I nearly got arrested the other night for one. It wasn't for trying to hurt anyone or anything but I risked losing everything and did not care at the time which in retrospect is the really scary part. I just don't care. I let this girl totally use me just because I was lonely plus wanted substances from her and mind you I'm pretty fucking sure I'm straight. She's telling people she got me obliterated and had her way with me (former co-worker showed me a text). So there goes my job too, i'm not going back. How to stop? It's so convoluted because I am bringing this on myself.