I am done in this world. I went to my therapist and he only helped a bit. But it was my fault. I cant tell him how far my thoughts really go. I have a plan and i even tried it out. Then came up with a back up. He asked me if the thoughts were controlable. I told him yes. But he didnt ask if i wanted to control them or not. Im so far down i cant see myself getting out. They took me off meds. My depression has hit rock bottom. Ive been calling my doc for a week with no call back. I dont know what to do. I cant think streight, or think things . I also cant stop cutting. Several times a day. But i know first aid s donto i can manage them. I dont know what to do. I only know one way to get out of this.