To those who know, we've decided to put Rolo down tomorrow. I'm not going to be there, i was determined to hold her and be the last thing she see's because she sleeps but my foster parents and my best friend has told that if i'm there, whenever i remember Rolo i'll see her as a dead cat whereas as, if i don't go i'll see her as the lively little shit that she was. In the last few days she's detiriated very quickly, quicker than i'd hoped. Yesterday she didn't eat a lot and spent most the day asleep. Today she's literally spent all day on my bed and hasn't gotten up to eat or go to the toilet. Her breathing is quite horrific, you can hear and see her breathing, its very unsettling. The life has gone from her eyes, she wants to go. To those that don't know, my cat (9 year old calicos) is horribly ill, my foster parents say its basically lung cancer, the vet just can't say that because she hasn't done the test. She, along with my other cat, is my world, they're pretty much the only 'real' family i have around me so as you can probably imagine i'm slightly devastated. But yer i just want to say that if i'm really really bitter and snappy with anyone over the next few days i'm so so so sorry...i really am. I would go on leave from SF but i'll need help, as stupid as it sounds. If you read any of my latest threads about Rolo you will see just how attatched i am but yer, a lot of people have reached out to help Rolo try and get the operation we couldn't afford and i want to thank you all so much for that! I'm making this thread now because i can...i won't have the strength tomorrow, in all honestly i predict a massive a fall so yer...if i can i'll let you know when its done and whats going to happen with her.