I had a serious pain attack in my side today. It hasn't hurt in a week till today and then just before I left for work it was soooo bad and had me doubled over and in tears. Even worse it triggered me because it brought to mind how he didn't care about my health and well being. Then I was lifting things at work and it started again and I could feel something poking out so I really think it's a hernia. Wednesday is my doctors appointment so we'll see. I hope they take me at the clinic. When I went for lunch I overheard this pregnant lady in tears on the phone talking about her worry over losing her baby. My first thought was about how little he cared about my pregnancy, my miscarriage, and all the problems. I felt the darkness come over me. It got so bad tears filled my eyes while eating and I didn't want anyone to see. I fought hard to keep the tears back. Why? Why can someone be so cruel and uncaring for someone they claim to love. I wish that tornado had hit here and killed me instead of all those innocent students.