i feel like playing Russian roulette with 6 bullets... I've tried to kill myself before by taking <mod edit: methods> because i could not get to the gun at the time, but now i can. I also just got out of a psychic ward because I've been severely depressed for years, and now apparently I'm deranged. i don't really feel like doing this anymore. so i guess the point of this is just my simple question, is there anything to look forward to?