Round and round and round

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by na-taya, Apr 5, 2016.

  1. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    I want to get off the ride now....I'm beyond exhausted.

    But yet I still ride this horrible ride. But for how long.

    I can't even let it out I'm over repeating myself.

    I just can't, I can't, can't can't, I cant
  2. sahel

    sahel SF Supporter

    Why re you so tired and feel this way? Do you mind sharing more?
  3. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    Please don't give up hun. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for!

    *hugs you*
  4. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    Everyday and night it a battle to not hurt myself or to attempt to end my life. Sleeps been rubbish.

    @ThePhantomLady i don't want to be stong anymore :(
  5. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    Then please get some help hun, let someone help you through all of this. Call some of the numbers you have written down.

    I don't want you to hurt yourself, and I dont want to lose you
  6. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    I'm to scared of even the threat of hospital......

    I just keep going in circles....

    Plus I'm sick of needed help and support.

    My peer worker believes if i do this for my friend it will push me back into hospital.

    Plus another thing she said she would help me with she now isn't.....
    I know i shouldn't be selfish about it but i just wish she wouldn't say thing she isn't gonna do.

    I'm thinking about giving my cats away so this can be easier.........
  7. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    You should be 'selfish' and put you and your health first.

    If you need to go to the hospital you need that, hun. You need to be in safe hands where they can help you through all of this and get you better.

    I really want you to feel better and be happy hun.

    *hugs you*
  8. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    Hospital is safe in you canrt harm but they basically totally ignore you even when you ask unless you kick of or do somthing drastic......I refuse to go back again.

    I'm sick of always repeating the same stuff.....

    I just want out.
  9. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support SF Artist SF Supporter

    Hi na-taya, the world/life can seem like a big and scary place especially when nobody seems to understand what you're going through. You're a good and caring person and life can get better. I wish I had the power to heal all here who are feeling alone and in pain, but all I can offer you is my understanding and friendship. If you'd like to just talk and unburden yourself, I'm here for you. Please feel free to message me and believe me, you won't be bothering me, you'll be helping me too. Be gentle with yourself my friend, we all can get through this. Bless you.
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  10. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    Thank you @Brian777 i try not to harass people to much because it always the same battle over and over again and im sure my words can get annoying.

    But thank you so much for being so kind and warm.
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  11. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support SF Artist SF Supporter

    Hi my friend, what ever you're comfortable with is just fine. Just know that if you need to talk I'm available, and it's no bother. Take care for yourself. Bless you :)