for the last two weeks ive been on vacation with my father and brother. it started out better than i had hoped, i was being social for the first time in several months. i was going out, playing basketball, hiking, fishing, having a good time with my fam. about 4 days in though.. something just clicked in my head. stopped talking, stopped going outside, even stopped eating. which isnt unusuall, i went through that for months, but this time i just sat in my room, doing nothing. sitting there, staring at nothing listening to heavy metal music. i stopped talking completely, only answer in mono tones, when somebody would ask me whats wrong i wouldnt say a thing. yesterday my dad told me i ruined the vacation for both my brother and himself, that hes not going to put up with my behavoir. well... i ruined something my dad payed thousands of dollars for.. what a great son i am, right? ive been dicking everybody, and for what? because im too much a pussy? well SF?!?!? jesus, im so god damn pathetic i have to ruin other peoples days too? i see NO reason i shouldnt end it, im just bringing everybody around me down.