I am semi-addicted to runescape, I am not handicapped, I am in shape, but it feels there is something holding me back from doing the things I feel I want to do, which sometimes seem like impulses. I want to make music, paint, and live. My family trys to take care of me very much, they are always telling me what I should do, and they pressure me, our relationship seems to have no respect involved, I don't feel I have any respect for my grandparents or my mother. With other people it is different, I am shy, I think of talking to random people as I wander around but I can't seem to just join a group of people or talk to the person who seems interesting to me, and many people seem interesting to me, in fact, I walk around at times and think about a random girl on the street and I hanging out, if only I were to tell her I want to. I play runescape about every day now, it feels like a drug, when I play it, I feel down, but I still don't know what else to do, people have always been so difficult for me, but not animals and trees, I can walk up to them very easily and make friends with them.