I cant stop this downward spiral I hurts me so much to live this way Why am i such a hellish creature? I cant be near any kind of person, all i do is ruin everything for us I have absolutely no good features. I feel you should all wish death upon me you all know how much i do, why do you not understand that i feel this way? Im such a horrid thing of life a life i cant stand to bear to live my body is just full of way too much hate. I want to run away from this all be alone, completely alone, noone i can hurt I need to make a real decision, for myself. I know what the result will be for me, Still i dont belive in such an afterlife, If i do, nothing can be worse than this current hell.