Things are way too expensive. It also seems that I probably can't even go to the university I want because it cost too much. If that's the case then i'm just not going to college. I live in an apartment with my mother, who was selfish and moved all the way down to South Carolina with no remorse that I would miss a semester. I'm not sure what to do. I have this big plan of packing up my bags and running away. There was a girl in newyork who didn't really like me that much but maybe I can find her. I'll have to be a bum for a little while, but I don't care. My life is pretty much over, I lost the chance with the girl of my dreams a year ago, and there really is nothing good about my life. I plan to leave on a day when my mom isn't home, and i'll print out a map and walk all the way back to newyork. I'll be hungry but perhaps i'll have to eat out the trash or steal, see how far i'll get. It's worth something. My life obviously isn't taking off. I have no job, and have been trying to get one for a long time. Can't get into a university, lost the girl of my dreams, live at a place that I don't like. So i'm ready.