First some background: I was starting to feel worse and worse, so I posted here and some other places a year or so ago, but it didn't help (probably made it worse, if anything). So after a while I started talking to some of my friends about it. Now they dislike me and the one friend who I really relied on for support won't even talk to me anymore, told me she doesn't want to be friends, and "gossips" with other people I know about me (well, two of them do, actually. The other one said I was an awful person, lies to me, and does much more gossiping, but still hasn't said they don't want to be my friend anymore. Though that will probably happen soon enough I guess.) I was already past what I could handle, but now I don't even have the one person I thought really cared about me anymore. I just can't deal with that in the first place, much less that and everything else. So here's the dilemma. I don't know how to kill myself without the risk of suffering or being injured without dying. Instead, I think my best option is to "run away". Any reasons I should or should not do this? And I don't need people to attempt to comfort me. It makes me feel worse when people pretend to care when they don't, so please don't.